Cheating on My Job

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On June 15th I began work at a start-up company that was supposed to be a full-service estate management company. It would provide legal services (wills, trusts, etc.) and estate sale services (in-home or the company would buy all items). Well, the owner has focused on buying items instead and likes to call it the business a “nice person pawn shop”. This is totally not what I signed up for!

The crazy thing is that last week two companies contacted me about jobs that I didn’t even apply for. Where were these companies when I was spending months sending in over 70 job applications? haha… I guess life is like that though. Timing is everything. So, last week and this week I have been talking to the new companies and interviewing with them.

I feel like I am cheating on my current company. I feel like I’m lying to my boss (which I kind of am when I tell him I have appointments). This weekend I felt really guilty about it, but I have become comfortable with it now. Everyone who changes jobs goes through this. My job is not what I thought it would be. I’m really under compensated for my education and compared to my friends who graduated. I have a whole list of justifications in my head that I have been going over… and over… and over.

Wednesday I find out if I got both of the other jobs. I don’t know which one I’ll take or if I’ll stick with my current job. I’m pretty sure I would rather have one of the new jobs, but I need to know the compensation package first.

Any advice for switching jobs? Dealing with interviewing while working somewhere?

2 comments on “Cheating on My Job”

  1. msmontilla says:

    You’ll do find Becca. Like you said, this is not as expected and you need to go where people are willing to pay you for the skillset and ambitions you’ve spent so much time (and $$) pursuing. Go where you’re going to feel valuable and valued, m’dear. I’m really excited for you and I hope you got one (or both ) as offers. If you didn’t, keep cheating. Cause you’re not. You’re just doing whats best for you and the people you admire didn’t get where they are b/c they let anything else hold them back. /rant 🙂

    1. Becca Krzmarzick says:

      Thanks Christina! You make me feel better 🙂 That’s so true about the people I admire… I never thought about it like that.

      Who knows if I will even get a new job soon, I just have such a hard time dealing with guilt and quitting things. I know I need to get a better fitting and better paying job. It’s all about timing I suppose.

      Did you find a job? I hope you are enjoying your new city!

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